September 22, 2014

Faith is

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Faith is being guided through a dark tunnel trusting solely in The One Leading the way.

May 6, 2014

Things Aren’t What They Seem

Filed under: Uncategorized — Tags: , , , , — yalandarose @ 9:46 am

Turning from a busy street, I took what’s usually a shortcut home until I pulled behind a vehicle driving what seemed like 10 miles under the speed limit.

My frustration grew as we creeped along each block as if in a caravan of a funeral procession instead of my skip and a hop home.

We were driving so slowly that for the first time, I noticed the neighborhood signs that read, “Drive Slowly, We Love Our Children.

I love my child too which is why she is safely buckled in the backseat.

My exasperation had simultaneously reached its breaking point as I braked for the 4-way stop ahead.

Judging from our Sunday drive in the middle of a Monday commute, I anticipated sitting at the 4-way for at least five minutes as the car ahead decided who had the right-of-way.

 That’s when I noticed a group of patrol officers on foot with speedometers in hand.

 They used their other hand to flag down speeding vehicles as they approached the intersection to issue citations.

 Until that point, I felt impatient and trapped at what appeared to be an obstacle preventing me from moving forward as quickly as I hoped.

As I passed the officers in relief (at not citing me for following too close), I reflected on the news I received at work that had me in such a rush to get home.

 I didn’t get the promotion.

I may not have gotten the promotion as quickly as I hoped, but soon my disappointment will dissipate as I realize I don’t know what lies ahead.

December 20, 2012

A Thousand Years in the Rain

Filed under: Christianity, Faith — Tags: , , , — yalandarose @ 1:04 pm

rainLast year this time, I was crying in the threat of a lawsuit for being unable to pay my student loans

Last year this time, my car was threatening repossession

Last year this time, I was struggling to cover necessities

Last year this time, I couldn’t afford to buy my daughter any Christmas gifts

Last year this time, I was lonely, depressed, frustrated, anxious, helpless, and hopeless

This year right now, I am in good standing with my student loan debt

This year right now, my car payments are up to date

This year right now, our necessities are met

This year right now, my child has toys she won’t even play with

This year right now, I have positive friends that fill me with hope

A thousand years are but a day to the Lord (2 Peter 3:8)

So bless God whether He’s Pouring sunshine or storms.

Remember God’s Promise of His Rainbow (Genesis 9:12-15)  that comes after the rain.

Joy comes in the morning (Psalms 30:5), as long as you can make it through the night.

I’m a living testimony that if you don’t have blind faith, you have no faith at all.

So when it rains, keep your umbrella (and your hopes) up too.

October 31, 2012

Honor Our Father

Filed under: Christianity, Uncategorized — Tags: , , — yalandarose @ 5:20 pm


We’ve all been there – in need of advice, a confidante, or moral support.  Out of all of the people in our lives, our moms usually know just what to say. We’ve called our mothers ‘mom’ before we even knew her name.  Through countless hugs and floor-pacing, moms have literally paid an arm and a leg when we needed a shoulder to cry on, a pat on the back, or a listening ear. During those times, the name that we’ve called her since we could speak, her new first name, is the only one that matters.

Dads are no different.  Ask any daddy’s girl, and she will agree that her requests usually begins with Dad instead of Mr. or John.

Mom and dad were who we told some of the biggest announcements and most intimate details of our lives.  How else could we address…

“I’m engaged!”

“I’m pregnant!”

“I made a mistake.”

Mom and dad simply, endearingly, and somehow appropriately suffice.

Our Heavenly Father is no different.

Jesus Instructs us that when we pray, to begin with “Our Father.” (Matthew 6:9)*

Not that any variation of His name is not correct, but Our Father Wants a personal relationship with His children.

How intimate would a mother-daughter talk be if it began with, “Parent” or Maternal Figure?”

Imagine daddy’s girl requesting the car keys by addressing her “Patriarch” or “Begetter?”

Though there are numerous religions formed on the validity of Our Father’s Name, let’s not take away the simplicity of the Bible.

and I fear, lest, as the serpent did beguile Eve in his subtilty, so your minds may be corrupted from the simplicity that [is] in the Christ.” (2 Corinthians 11:3)*

Some of us already know, and some have yet to experience the pain of losing one or both of our parents. However, we are reminded throughout His Word that Our Father Will Always Be there.

Honor, love and obey your parents and especially, our Father.

*Young’s Literal Version


Don’t Stop Chasing Rainbows

Filed under: Christianity — Tags: , , , — yalandarose @ 3:50 pm


While I was running errands, my daughter asked me a random question.

“Mama, can I see a rainbow heart?”

“No,” I said not because I was in a sore mood, but because I didn’t know what a rainbow heart was.

“Please mommy, can you show me a rainbow heart on the computer?” whimsically mixing technology with fantasy.

“We’ll see.”(if she’s forgotten about it by the time we’ve made it home.)

She didn’t.

After an image search, she was amazed and I dumbawestruck at the various rainbow hearts on the screen.

When I was her age, I futilely looked for the end of rainbows before abandoning my search for the elusive pot of gold.

However, my young daughter was freely seeking a heart full of the multi-colored banners.

While her search ended when she found a rainbow, my search would just begin as I overlooked countless others for something that didn’t exist.

Based on Our Father’s Covenant(Genesis 9:13-17), how could she know that she was literally searching for a heart filled with love – and find it?


October 22, 2012

Keep Dreaming

Filed under: Christianity — Tags: , , — yalandarose @ 11:36 am



My faith does not allow me to practice astrology, numerology and all the other New Age stuff to determine my fate because God Has Made it clear in His Word what the fate of the saints are. However, I do believe that when Our Father Wants To Talk to His Children, He Will do it whenever and however He Wants as His Word Has Shown. If anyone is offended, I will quickly delete it.

I wasn’t going. I just couldn’t.   The low funds in my account meant no fun with the girls after work.

Being a single mom with a single income can make you feel single in more ways than one.

So instead of laughing it up with the girls tonight, I was laying down to sleep.

But God Wouldn’t Let the matter rest.

After dozing off, I started dreaming.

No longer stretched out in bed, but in a stretch limo!  Instead of reveling in the company of the girls from work, I was surrounded by the company of men – from the mob!  (Hey, I told you it was a dream.)

Instead of fearing for my life, I was loudly proclaiming the fear of my financial insecurity.

One of the men sitting up front said, “Is that your only problem? Here, this should help,” handing me 2 crisp $100 bills.

For obvious reasons, I declined.

I was then surrounded by laughter, again not from the girls, but from a group of mob men finding it hilarious that any woman would turn down a double date with 2 Benjamins.

Once the laughter subsided, the limo came to an abrupt stop and I was shown the car door.  The mob was no longer entertained.

Instead of the 2 bills, I was now holding onto 2 balloons. As the number of hairs on my head, God Is Aware of my bigger than life phobia of balloons. (I actually felt heart palpitations when I saw the above photo.)

My dream was quickly turning into a nightmare.

My feet were now off the ground as the balloons started soaring into the sky. I tried to release one of the balloons to cushion my landing, but I couldn’t let it go.

I panicked and started clawing at the balloons to pop them (the source of my fear) hoping that I was still low enough to tumble down.

They wouldn’t pop.

Realizing it was futile to panic, I started praying, as I ascended higher and higher into the sky.

They popped.

I landed safely.

I woke up and realized everything was going to be alright.

September 9, 2012

Bad Girl

Filed under: Christianity — Tags: , , — yalandarose @ 11:43 pm

Every time I think I am being a good, little Christian, I end up doing something not good that makes me feel little.

September 7, 2012

I – Scream!

Filed under: Christianity — Tags: , , , — yalandarose @ 10:20 am

Interesting how I may have discovered the inspiration for the “Ice Cream, You Scream” marketing slogan.  No, it wasn’t through a documentary on dairy cows, but rather a recurring episode of “Toddlers and Tantrums.”  The latest episode of T & T was extremely enlightening as it revealed the producers and actresses heated moments of artistic expression through multiple takes and edits to condense it to the playful, 30-second spot we’ve grown to love.

My tot, the T & T star, knows that simply screaming for ice cream in Take 1 simply won’t cut it.  So in Take 2, she multi-tasks into a shrieking, begging, pouting, tearful rage.  Even with the amped up water works, I said no.

“You have to eat.”

“I don’t wanna eeeeat, I want iscreeeem!”

“I said no, you have to eat.”

“I’m not hungry!”

Too late, her meal was already on the table.

She sat down with a defiant thud, pursed lips and crossed arms.

But eventually she began to eat.

A cup of water placed before her however, quickly reignited her temper.

“I want juice!”

“Well, you’re getting water!”

“I don’t want water, I want juice!”

I wasn’t in the bargaining mood today.

“I already answered you, now finish eating!”

Eventually she did.

“Mommy look, I ate all my food!” She said with a full stomach and a lighter mood. I expected another request for ice-cream, but instead she went to bed.

Her clean plate assured me of what I already knew. My daughter’s snack request was inadequate when what she needed was a meal. She didn’t get what she wanted, but what she needed. In the end, what she needed was what she wanted all along.

July 30, 2012

Happy Ending

Filed under: Christian living, Faith, God's Love — Tags: , , — yalandarose @ 4:40 pm

 I want to read, she wants to play is an incessant conflict between my daughter and I, not at the park or playground but over my laptop.  The laptop may as well be coin-operated because the minute I log on my time is fleeting.  I can usually buy more time by finding things for my daughter to do:  clean your room, take your bath, brush your teeth.

My daughter can buy more time by whining, demanding, and begging away my concentration, which is why I abruptly walked away from an essay I was reading before my patience and simultaneous computer time ran out.

She then wasted no time claiming her position in front of the monitor.

However, instead of moving the cursor up to her favorite game site, she scrolled down.

For a tot not yet in Kindergarten, I wondered how long the thousands of foreign words would hold her interest as she continued to scroll.

I watched as she purposefully stared at the screen as if she was looking for something substantial to take away from the article – other than my time.

She was still scrolling.

She stopped intermittently during her literary stroll of the essay to enjoy the view of a handful of clip art.

She then reached the end of her stroll and found whatever it was she was looking for- not at the end of the essay but at the very bottom of the webpage.

A smiley face.

Although the purpose of her search wasn’t clear to me, and I’m sure it wasn’t clear to her either, she kept going. Though at times she paused to enjoy the view, she found what she was looking for – a happy ending.

July 26, 2012

Dry Your Eyes

Filed under: Christianity — Tags: , , — yalandarose @ 9:49 pm

“Crying isn’t going to make me do it any faster!”

Is what my daughter hears between sobs when her request elevates to demands in a few hot seconds.

Considering that this is a regular occurrence, I marvel that she is still not aware that I fully intend to fulfill her original request before she hypes into diva-mode.

Now, I have to stop to teach her a 4-part lesson in patience.

  1. Wipe your face
  2. Take a deep breath
  3. Ask politely.
  4. Say thank-you.

Immediately, I instruct my daughter to stop crying because I want her full attention.

If necessary, I ask her to take a deep breath to organize her thoughts. I then instruct her to phrase her request into a question. And before she runs off with her request fulfilled and no memory of this event ever occurring, I remind her to say thank you.

I learned how childish I was acting  as I was sobbing about another day and no job offer.  I have been praying for nearly 2 years for a better job, and I cranked into diva mode today.

Then I realized, crying isn’t going to make my Father Answer my prayers any faster. So I wiped my face, took a deep breath, continue to ask Him nicely remembering His Sovereignty, and when He does respond, I will thank Him -again.

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